Just a few updates. Perhaps not what you wanna hear, but…
Dragon Rider 8th Grade will be not published before December 3rd. There is no way I can get through the edits before then. I could pull off two rounds, but it needs more than that by the round I’m on.
I’m even struggling to get through this edit.
There’s a lot of things going on. And… I’m struggling in general. It feels as if I lost my support. Like I have no one looking forward to me hitting published. No one who really cares about this series. Or any of my books.
I mean I haven’t even been able to give away my books. Not when I post about having paperbacks I’m willing to send out or when I offer things like Let’s Play a Game!…
It’s exhausting. Writing is exhausting. I love it. I won’t stop. Never. Every step of the process to getting a final cover is fun and exciting and worth it. But it’s still exhausting.
With society being what it is and my home life being far worse than normal… My exhaustion is winning in all the wrong ways.
Dragon Rider 8th Grade would complete the middle grade level work. The other four in the series suit young adult. But I can’t split up a series across classifications.
And I just can’t finish it before the year ends.
And this basically means everything is being pushed back.
If someone was around to press me or point me at something I’d be more likely to finish it.
Without that support… I… I’m tired. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. My cafe just opened with tables, but it’s limited. I can’t just stay there for hours working.
I don’t know what to do.
I’m posting just to push off my deadline. To prove I am telling the world I am. But no one reads these things. I’m talking into the void.
I’m a failure. I’m not a real author. I’d barely call myself a writer. Why am I still trying? There’s no point.